The last few days have been rough; and I mean gut wretching, tear filled, guilt ridden, head pounding, emotional volcano explosion, rough. For many years in my past, I have been someone that I don't even recognize anymore. I was scared, hurt, lost, chained by a repeated merry-go-round of habits I couldn't excape, I didn't know how to escape. Inside was a little girl crying to be released from the cage she had been forced into. As I'm learning to reach up to get the keys of willingness from the Creator above, I can see the light finally reaching through the darkness to show me the way. However, the muck and weights that I have been carrying, and adding to for so many years is trying to keep me down. I know they will not forever be there, and most days I wish I could just float up from the cage and be set free immediately, that would not give me the muscles I need in future battles. Somes I feel like I just want to dig down deeper, hide, and pretend that little girl has never existed, and go back down the crappy road I was stuck on, that would not allow me any room to grow. I truly am grateful that through this journey I am not alone, that I have help along the way. As long as I continue reaching up and out, I will escape to the true reality of love, peace and joy. This gives me hope everytime I feel like giving up. I've come a long way, and I will continue to fight. I know many others out there are going through their own version of this battle. We are not alone, peace waits just beyond the darkness, we just have to keep reaching, because hands will always be there guiding us out.
Continuing in Faith (a Journey poem #4) By Marie Slider Henriksen 5 December 2024 Have you ever wondered what it’s like to feel safe? Or how you can find comfort when life makes you chafe? Have you ever heard that voice from deep inside, That tells you that its time to get off this bumpy ride? Have you been so lost, the idea of light was crazy? and sitting in the darkness made you feel less hazy? This is what my life was like, before the journey started, And here is what my mind was like, before the clouds had parted: “Unmet expectations, resentments then frustration, Then logic out the windows, that’s the way my brain goes. Then loop-de-loop it goes around, Solutions to this can’t be found. In it I can’t stop this mess, I’m going crazy I confess.” I couldn’t find a path to safety, I felt I had to fight Everything and everyone, each day and each night. I couldn’t find safety, I didn’t feel free, E...
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