Paying it Forward

Paying it Forward

8 April 2018

I’m not sure what to write about, yet I know that this is right.

I have to keep using my words to stay within the fight.

The fight for freedom and happiness has to begin with me.

Or else my world is doomed, for all eternity.

God gave me a voice to speak, in speaking I can find.

The strength to move forward, if only in my mind.

Writing helps release, the bonds upon my heart,

I know I’ll never be finished, this is just a start.

The journey is a long one, I know without a doubt.

Sometimes I want to cry, others I need to shout.

That does not diminish, the power of my words,

For sometimes they take flight, just like little birds.

To a broken heart that needs hope and love within,

So on their own long journey, they can finally begin.

There are many in this world suffering as I did,

Because they felt alone, like a lost little kid.

Someone was always there, though to them I was blind,

And as I look within my past, it’s not that hard to find;

That though I felt alone, someone was always there,

To help me lift my load, my burden they did share.

Maybe it was church, or family or a friend,

Mostly it was strangers, who had a hand to lend.

Whether it was a smile, or a kind word when required,

Even though I couldn’t see, hope never retired.

I’d see the love of a child, who shyly waved a hand,

Or saw a smile on someone, who heard their favorite band.

I have seen many men, who hold open many doors,

And when I have dropped something, some got on all fours,

To help me gather up, my items on the ground,

And even if I didn’t thank them, malice wasn’t found.

There truly are kind people, who genuinely care,

Even if my love inside, is feeling very bare.

So when I feel ungrateful, I try to bring to mind,

All the love that is around me, it’s not too hard to find.

I have to pay it forward, I’m starting to realize.

Or else I take another step, toward my own demise.

This world is not my own, to do with as I please,

I have to start my day, firmly on my knees.

I ask that God can guide me, and not let me run away,

From the negativity I see around me, every passing day.

I ask for Him instead, to let me be His light,

I know that He protects me, so I thank Him every night.

He shows me how I can help, another in distress

Sometimes I don’t know how, this I must confess.

So I have to open my mouth, and ask for what they need.

Even if they say nothing, I know I kept to the creed,

The one I made to God, that I love my fellow brother,

And if they are not ready for help, I turn to another.

If only to plant a seed, from God who knows the best,

For others He will send, to take care of the rest.

We all need each other, to fill our hearts with memories,

So we can see God moments, that show up in our stories.

I hope one day I see, everyone involved,

That helped me on my way, while this world revolved.

I know I wouldn’t make it, traveling alone,

I’m glad that there were others whose light I was shone.

Though fear, anger, sadness, still remain inside,

I’m not worried any more, for love now does reside.

Inside where there were cobwebs, God shook them from the wall,

So off the cliff of negativity, I didn’t have to fall.

Now I must repay, the kindness that He gave me,

By sending other people, in my life to save me.

I will try forever more, to help others every day.

To give someone light, to help them on their way.

I know if I can do this, God won’t let me down,

Because when I am lost, to Him I’m always found.