Continuing in Faith (a Journey poem #4)

 

Continuing in Faith

(a Journey poem #4)

By Marie Slider Henriksen

5 December 2024

 

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to feel safe?

Or how you can find comfort when life makes you chafe?

Have you ever heard that voice from deep inside,

That tells you that its time to get off this bumpy ride?

 

Have you been so lost, the idea of light was crazy?

and sitting in the darkness made you feel less hazy?

This is what my life was like, before the journey started,

And here is what my mind was like, before the clouds had parted:

 

“Unmet expectations,

resentments then frustration,

Then logic out the windows,

that’s the way my brain goes.

Then loop-de-loop it goes around,

Solutions to this can’t be found.

In it I can’t stop this mess,

I’m going crazy I confess.”

 

I couldn’t find a path to safety, I felt I had to fight

Everything and everyone, each day and each night.

I couldn’t find safety, I didn’t feel free,

Even though my life seemed so happy-go-lucky.

 

When I started on this journey, I found I wasn’t alone,

Others had these same feelings; my mind was blown.

I didn’t feel so isolated, they gave me tools to fight.

They showed me how they found God, and came into the light.

 

When I started trusting Him, the One who is above,

He filled my heart completely with gratitude and love.

He started healing broken parts, with help from the Savior

And really started changing the kinks in my behavior.

 

I have much to learn, and many layers to unfold,

I feel like a new story, in my life is being told.

I’m finding safety in the light, the darkness is retreating,

And in regards to others, I don’t feel like I’m competing.

 

I’m continuing in faith, challenging that voice

The one that tries to tell me, I’m making the wrong choice.

It tries to tell me I’m not worthy, or others are to blame,

And tries to overcome me with darkness and with shame.

 

Now that I have felt the warmth within the light,

It gives me strength as I continue in this fight.

I know all this is temporary, I have help to make it through,

Now I can turn my heart, to being there for you.

 

If you have felt the same as me, finding comfort in the dark,

I hope you get to read this, and maybe feel a spark.

There is love around, that others can help you feel.

Sometimes, like me, you may have felt it wasn’t real.

 

Please keep moving forward, the light will start to show,

From a loving God above who wants you all to know:

You have worth, just like me, even though our paths contrast,

And at the end of the journey, we will rewrite our past.