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Not Lost

Not Lost
18 June 2020
Marie Slider


Lost in my brain, feeling insane; not sure of where to go.
Yearn to be free; what's happening to me? In a boat I cannot row.

Thoughts reign supreme, or so it seems; where can I find release?
Where can I run? This is not very fun; why can I not find peace?

What's that I hear? It's not very clear; where is it coming from?
A pitter a patter, I feel like this matters; the noise is that of a drum.

It's not a loud sound, but it booms all around;
A stirring within my heart.
The spirit, it speaks; the brain starts to weep, for the curtains they finally part.

They show a love there, that the brain said was bare, and so I could not see.
How much I have grown; that I'm never alone; that Someone is holding me.

The scars that I've earned, are lessons Ive learned and I cannot forget;
The fact of the matter; I did not shatter,
And I will not live in regret.

So when I feel lost, and my brain feels tossed,
I hope these words come easy;
"You can push through, this is not new,
Fear not I am with thee."








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